Archive for September, 2008

From This Moment

Monday, September 29th, 2008

I have always loved the song “From This Moment”. Today driving home thinking of Hope (asleep in the backseat) it came on the radio and as I listened to the familiar words I have heard many times before, this time I thought of her.

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I’d give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can’t wait to live my life with you, can’t wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

You’re the reason I believe in love
And you’re the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn’t give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

(Shania Twain – From This Moment On)

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Hope's Baby Shower

Sunday, September 28th, 2008

I had a wonderful afternoon with family and friends who came to celebrate Hope’s birth with a baby shower today. It was a fun gathering at my family’s home in Los Lunas, and Hope was blessed with many generous gifts that will certainly come in handy now and as she grows.

My Mom planned the shower and sent out all the invitations, Amanda organized the food and games and a neat opportunity for everyone to share their thoughts for Hope on little cards I can save for her scrapbook, I got to spend time with Joanna, Sarah, Susan, Nicole, Lindsay, Kelly, Cheryl, Tish and Nikki, while Hope made the rounds alternating between smiling and sleeping in willing arms.

I don’t think I will have to buy baby clothes for the next year after Hope’s shower!  : )  She now has many adorable outfits to grow into over the coming months, along with useful and appreciated items like shampoo, lotion, wipes, toys, and more.

Cheryl’s gift included a cute little plaster kit to make her handprint in, Kelly surprised me with a perfect little WillowTree figurine titled “Hope Lifts Us Up!” that couldn’t have been more fitting (not to mention I love the Willow Tree figurines!), and Sarah found a unique soft and fuzzy teddy-bear nursery rhyme book that fits right in with the teddy-bear theme of her room.
One of our website clients Victor & Julie sent a handmade blanket that is so soft and fluffy I want to steal it for myeslf! My Aunt Pauline sent a handmade bright red and yellow baby quilt that she sleeps under every night now. Hope already has a savings fund started up with generous gifts from her Great Grandma & Grandpa Essenmacher, and Susan’s parents as well.
Hope has also been ‘adopted’ by some very special ‘Aunts’ that are a close part of my life thru our dogs. Her ‘Aunt Linda’ (who has 5 Italian Greyhounds from me) sent Hope a rocking horse that she is going to love when she grows into it! Her ‘Aunt Rhona’ sent a whimsical box packed full of fun, funny, and useful stuff (clothes, blankets, shoes, socks, jewelry, toys, a handmade plaque, and more).
Hope got many comments on how adorable she was at the shower with her bright alert eyes and wearing a beautiful string of pearls sent to her from her ‘Aunt Yvonne’ ( Yvonne (who has 2 Italian Greyhounds from me) sent a gift of beautiful pearls – a necklace / braclet set for Hope, and a matching bracelet / necklace / earring set for me (photos of Hope in her pearls will be added in the next post) – along with some framed original prints from the 30’s by a children’s book illustrator, an adorable pink jacket for Hope to grow into, and some beautiful hand-made quilts and blankets.

She’s a very blessed little girl!

Cars & Car Seats

Friday, September 26th, 2008

Car shopping. The mere words are enough to strike fear (of slick used-car-salesmen) deep into the heart of many people. Others just hate the process, car lots, test drives, sales people, pressure, negotiating, haggling, negotiating some more … you get the idea.
Richard and I both used to sell cars in the past (I know, I do realize that ranks us somewhere below lawyers, but just above pond scum) so the whole dealership process is old familiar territory to us.

We drive an Expedition that inhales gas at the rate of 12 MPG. Thanks to record $4.00+ gas prices this summer we had the  experience of paying over $100 to fill up an empty tank… and (after we recovered from the shock) we promptly started looking into a smaller gas-friendly vehicle that wouldn’t end up costing us our first-born child to drive (She *is* starting to grow on us and we wouldn’t mind keeping her around for a while).  : )~

Choosing a budget (ie: fuel) friendly car to drive should be a walk in the park. So off we go. Everything goes great till we load up the car-seat in the first car and get in … and my knees (sitting in the passenger seat with the car-seat behind me) are about 8 inches under my chin with my shins pressed against the glove-box while I admire all the fine workmanship and details in the dash directly in front of my face!  Guess that was the wrong car to try out. Off to the next dealership, the next car should be better.
Repeated the process at the next place … with the same results, and additional bruises on my shins.
We’re beginning to get the sinking feeling that this is going to be a much more difficult process than we originally anticipated. The problem is that while the car-seat fits fine in the MIDDLE of the backseat, more often than not we are transporting a puppy/s or dog/s to the vet or airport and need room for a dog crate (or three or four),  which requires the car-seat to be behind the passenger seat of the car.

I have come to the realization that car-seat designers all drive big roomy (gas-guzzling) SUVs. They obviously did NOT design their car-seats with the concept of fitting in a small fuel friendly vehicle in mind!

After coming to the realization that a car was just not going to be comfortably feasible to meet our baby and canine transportation needs, we ended up with a slightly larger vehicle that has both good gas mileage and cargo space to carry the dogs – the Chevy HHR-SS. The only 2008 model still available in NM was black (not the ideal color for someone living down a dirt road) but it fits the car-seat, the dogs, (and my bruised shins) comfortably. It looks a little odd, but kind of tends to grow on you after a while!  : )

Sleepless Nights & Baby Love

Friday, September 19th, 2008

So it’s just 15 minutes shy of 2 AM and I’m not sound asleep and happily dreaming in bed.

Instead, I’m staring (sleepily) at Hope’s beautiful little face while she contentedly eats her umpteenth meal of the day. I tend to ramble when I’m tired, but tonight my thoughts are wandering and I can’t help but think of how much I love this little girl.

A friend told me that once Hope was born I would understand and know what love really was. I think she was right. There are no words to adequatly describe the depths of my feelings for this tiny amazing and incredible little person.


  • I love those large dark bright eyes – I never tire of looking at them – and the way she is becoming so alert and intent on looking at the world around her.  : )
  • I love the way her little chin will quiver – like she’s about to cry – when she’s unsure or worried about something.  : )
  • I love the way she sleeps when she is totally relaxed – on her back - with both arms thrown up over her head.  : )
  • I love that sad look I get when she is about to cry – her eyes bright with brimming tears and the most heart-wrenching little pouty lips you have ever seen – all my ‘priorities’ are suddenly re-organized and she’s at the top of the list.  : )
  • I love the wide-eyed ‘wow’ looks she gets on occasion – so quiet but intently focused on something - I marvel at the wonder of seeing the world thru the eyes of a child.  : )
  • I love seeing Richard with his daughter - he is going to be such a good daddy - she brings out a new side of him that is beautiful to watch.  : )
  • I love seeing her smile – the little smiles that brighten her face at unexpected moments – they melt my heart.  : )
  • I love the ability I have to make her completely and totally happy – so many things I fail at though I try my best, but to Hope I seem to be her world – no matter how upset she is I can always make things better and make her happy.  : )
    Though I know she will grow and this will change, I wish I could keep her so happy and fix everything so easily forever.

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Unconditional Love

Wednesday, September 10th, 2008

We’re driving back from a long day of catching up and running errands in town. Both Richard and I are frustrated, exhausted, and short on sleep, as Hope has been constantly fussy all day and keeping us up all night for a week now.  I’m driving with one hand while rocking her carseat behind me with the other hand, hoping she will quit crying, struggling to stay awake for the last 10 minutes of our drive home, and out of the blue Richard says to me:

“Now I know why parents have this unconditional love for their children.”

Not sure where that came from or what he is trying to say, I ask “why”?

“It keeps us from wanting to kill them.”

After I thought about it I had to laugh. Things that would normally drive a person nuts are nothing to a parent. I guess that will probably be true on many an occasion as she grows. Funny how I can’t even think of being upset with her – no matter how tired/stressed/short on sleep/exhausted I am - there’s just love.

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Here’s a couple photos I took of hope while Richard was holding her. She loves looking at her daddy when he talks to her!